I volunteer at the church A LOT to the point when there is an activity people call me. I have become involved as have been the go to person. So when the secretary decided to retire I applied for the job. I had all the qualifications but many others applied as well. I figured at least I would get an interview because they would look at my volunteering and my skills. Nope, in fact I got rejected off the bat. I am so disgusted that if I find out the new secretary is someone off the street not involved with the church I am completely done volunteering, including teaching CCD and cantoring. However several of the other CCD teachers also applied and to be honest if one of them got the job I would be okay with that.
A month or so ago I applied for the secretary job at the vet, which is across the street from me. I know several there as I take my animals there, including the wife of one of my dad’s best friends. In fact when my last dog died they made a donation in her name to University of Illinois’ vet school. I got an interview there but then nothing.
I am so sick with this and I have come to the conclusion my only choices are to work a minimum wage job the rest of my life or to kill myself. Nothing else is going good in my life either, such as the guy I really want doesn’t want a relationship with me now (or forever who knows)and I suffer from a severe attack of psoriasis that is bad with stress. I really want to die at this point because I don’t see things getting better. Honestly if I can’t even get an interview where I have connections this means I will never work again.