My mother has always been one of those people who will bad mouth me. When I was in school she would tell people things about me (both real and made up)to make her look like this perfect mom while making me look like a nutjob. I would have random people come up to me and tell me stories on how I would cause trouble or do things I had no involvement in. Meanwhile my brother (her obvious favorite)could do no wrong and never has. In fact life has been wonderful for him where he graduated college, got a great job out of school, got married to his childhood sweetheart, had a kid, joined the army for medical school and is now an army doctor. Me, I have always fallen on hard times, where I struggled financially to finish college on my own (with little help from my parents because they figured I would find a man to support me). I did find a few jobs but so many were not jobs I desired (unlike my brother who got all the jobs he interviewed for). Guywise I struggled just as much where men I liked had no interest but men I didn’t like wanted to date me.
Of course this leads me to now where I have been unemployed and single, which is a double whammy. I am trying to find a job desperately and failing. My mother knows I am trying, she sees all the rejections but instead blames me. In her world it MUST be my fault. She has now reportedly gone back to her old tricks of telling people what a waste I am because I am not working. I try telling her I apply to EVERYTHING yet I still get rejected. She has no taken it a new level and of course it must be my attitude turning employers off because I think I am better than others. Well, yes I do think I am too good to work in a store or restaurant but have applied at these places and yes was told I am overqualified. I try jobs at my level and guess what? they reject me too! Reportedly she told her friend what a loser I am and her friend agreed because of course there are jobs out there! Yes, this friend got her loser son a job through who she knew and her employer was hiring but I got rejected.
Honestly I am waiting to hear from this employer and if I get rejected I want to die. I can’t handle anymore of this and want out. The idea of being stuck here the rest of my life until they die and I remain single and unemployed is a nightmare.